The Year in Pictures - 5/8

Nobody believes me when I tell them this…

If I had my way, I’d be able to go to be and fall asleep around midnight. That’s not the part nobody believes.

It’s the fact that I can’t fall asleep at that time of night, regardless of how little sleep I had the night before. I’ll get sleepy the day after, of course. I’ll have a hell of a time getting up (usually around 7:30-8 a.m.), and then I’ll have to fight being sleepy from 10 a.m. to about 3 p.m. Then I might also get drowsy around 7 p.m.

But when 11 p.m. or so rolls around…

Wide fucking awake.

If I’m lucky I’ll get sleepy by 1 a.m. Usually it’s more like 2. Sometimes 3.

It’s not exactly insomnia, but what would you call it?

I’m pretty immune to stimulants and depressants. Neither caffiene nor diphenhydramine make much of a ripple at all, which I guess is just as well, because the idea of taking drugs to regulate my schedule isn’t very appealing. But all the same, it would be nice to have somewhere to turn.

Exercise tends to regulate me somewhat, but it’s still far too easy to be awake during hours I shouldn’t be.

If only my job had a second or third shift…

(You can see all my YiP photos on my Flickr page.)